2019 was, for me, a very very difficult year. I lost my mother, we had a lot of financial trouble, and I had a lot of problems with my job. Add to that the normal ups and downs along with a lot of awful things happening in the world and well… I’m glad to see 2019 gone! I’m trying to stay optimistic. I’m trying to start a clean slate for 2020, without carrying any baggage over. There are still issues I’m dealing with, of course, but I’m going to try to see them with fresh eyes. So as you can imagine, I’m already starting this year off with a very difficult task!
Wish me luck for this year, y’all, I think I’m going to need it.
My 2020 word of the year is something that I’d like to focus on. Something that I’m striving for that I genuinely believe is within reach. So my word is:
: the state of being contented; satisfaction; ease of mind.
I chose this word because I spent the last year being angry about all my problems. I am a solution person, and I like to fix things. I get very out of sorts when I have no control over things, or when someone I love has a problem that I can’t help with. But this year, I’m going to try to remember that I don’t have to fix everything, and instead of worrying about things about of my control, I’m going to stay in my lane. I’m not going to chase happiness, or that fleeting high. I want to be satisfied with my life. Maybe I won’t be filled with joy and wonder all the time, but I want to be less stressed, and I want to focus on making my lot in life better instead of focusing on all the things I don’t have, or haven’t done. I want to be content.
What’s your word for the year, and how are you going to try to embody it?
Though January is already halfway over, I can still hardly believe a new year has started. Normally I love celebrating the new year – I use it as a new start, as a way to take stock and look back on what I like about my life and what areas need improvement. But this year, the transition from 2018 to 2019, just completely passed me by. I kept meaning to make resolutions or new yearly goals, or at least look back on the past year – and I meant to do this, and I meant to do this, and somehow it always slipped my mind and I never actually got around to it at all. In fact, on the 31st, I didn’t even notice when midnight came. So I feel a little… lost. Or maybe lost is too strong, but I don’t feel like I got off on a great foot.
So I want to change that.
For 2019, my word of the year is:
I want to be there and aware, enjoying my life. I have a bad habit sometimes of thinking how I wish things could be, or how things might be one day if I work hard enough. And I still want to have those goals, but I don’t want to take the time I have right now for granted. I’m a big believer in making the best of what you have, and even if things are a little messy for me right now, I’m still very, very lucky. My daughter’s going to be turning one this year, and I don’t want to miss a moment of this precious time when she’s still so small. My husband and I are happy and things in our relationship are going very well. I’m doing well in my career (I’m a librarian), and I have a lot of big plans for the next step in that journey, too. So I’m going to be “present.” I’m going to treat the time I have like a “present.” (See what I did there? Choosing a word with versatility.)
What’s your word for the year, if you have one? How are you going to apply it to your life?