2019 Word of the Year

Though January is already halfway over, I can still hardly believe a new year has started. Normally I love celebrating the new year – I use it as a new start, as a way to take stock and look back on what I like about my life and what areas need improvement. But this year, the transition from 2018 to 2019, just completely passed me by. I kept meaning to make resolutions or new yearly goals, or at least look back on the past year – and I meant to do this, and I meant to do this, and somehow it always slipped my mind and I never actually got around to it at all. In fact, on the 31st, I didn’t even notice when midnight came. So I feel a little… lost. Or maybe lost is too strong, but I don’t feel like I got off on a great foot.

So I want to change that.

For 2019, my word of the year is:

PRESENT

I want to be there and aware, enjoying my life. I have a bad habit sometimes of thinking how I wish things could be, or how things might be one day if I work hard enough. And I still want to have those goals, but I don’t want to take the time I have right now for granted. I’m a big believer in making the best of what you have, and even if things are a little messy for me right now, I’m still very, very lucky. My daughter’s going to be turning one this year, and I don’t want to miss a moment of this precious time when she’s still so small. My husband and I are happy and things in our relationship are going very well. I’m doing well in my career (I’m a librarian), and I have a lot of big plans for the next step in that journey, too. So I’m going to be “present.” I’m going to treat the time I have like a “present.” (See what I did there? Choosing a word with versatility.)

What’s your word for the year, if you have one? How are you going to apply it to your life?

Resolutions for 2019

Resolutions for 2019
white glitter shoes on concrete
Starting the year off on a “new foot”

As 2018 drew to a close, I spent a lot of time thinking about how I wanted the next year to go.  That was a big – really big! – year for me, and while I wouldn’t have had it any other way, after all the dust settled so to speak it left me feeling a little… lost.  

Now that I’ve achieved so many of my goals (had a baby, finished my master’s degree, my husband and I bought a house), where do I go from here? Especially in my career – which don’t get me wrong, I love – I’m feeling stuck. I know I could, and should, make new goals, but suddenly everything I might like to do seems unattainable. After a great year and a lot of hard work, I’m doubting myself. Am I really capable? Can I really meet and set new goals?

My word for 2019 is “Present” and while I don’t have any resolutions exactly – misleading title of the post, I’m afraid! – I do want to try to be intentional this year, and focus on being present in my life, enjoying the here and now. So while I do feel like I need more long term goals, I’m not going to stress out about it. I have enough little stressors in life day-to-day, I don’t need to add to that with any sort of existential crisis! I think having a few smaller goals will help me feel less adrift. By “resolving” – see what I did there? – to set and work towards a few reasonable goals, I think it will help me feel more focused and get back on track. I don’t expect 2019 to be as big and exciting as 2018 – not unless I have another baby, and I’m not ready for that right now! – but that’s okay. It’s still a new year, and a new chance to push myself out of my comfort zone a little. That’s part of why I started this blog. To try something new! Start a new adventure! I love writing, and blogging is something I feel like I would enjoy that would also be a sustainable interest for me.

My other goals for this year are:

-Improve my photography
Taking pictures is something I really enjoy doing, but I’m ashamed to say I’ve never put as much work into it as I should. I want nice, high quality pictures and this year I’m really going to buckle down and learn as much as I can and really work hard to improve my skills. You can follow along with me here, and on my instagram! As I said, I’m an amateur – I mean like extreme amateur here – but I’m planning to work really, really hard to get better! I only have an iPhone now, but if I can keep up the hard work I’d like to invest in a high quality camera.

-Build a portfolio for freelance writing
Already, I think I’m going to really enjoy blogging. I have a personal book blog I update occasionally, but I wouldn’t call myself a “blogger.” Though I’m a 9-5 mom working outside the home (I’m a librarian, and I love it), I have seriously considered trying remote work to stay at home with my daughter. It would mean sacrificing my current career, so I don’t want to take a big leap yet, but it’s something to think about. I do love writing, though, and even if I never believed I could make a career out of it I’ve wanted to be a writer. I’ll be writing here as well as contributing to a few library-related publications, and I’m hoping to maybe guest post a few places and maybe pitch a story or article somewhere. This is going to be slow going, I’m sure, but again – I’m willing to work hard!

-Learn a new language
I have a friend who’s a speech pathologist who has pushed me to play music in foreign languages for my daughter since she was born. I’m already a fan of KPOP anyway, so that was certainly no hardship. I made a playlist of music to play for her, and I’ve been enjoying it a lot myself. It made me super self-aware, though, that I couldn’t understand anything that any of the artists were singing about. I decided that I’d like to learn a new language. I’m using DuoLingo mostly, though I’ve considered trying Rosetta Stone (though the cost can be… kinda prohibitive). Also, I listen to a lot of Disney music in Spanish. I don’t know what they’re saying most of the time, but I know the songs well enough to get the gist. Anyone have any tips for a native English speaker trying to learn Spanish? I’ll let you know how I’m doing!

Those are my three new goals – or “resolutions” – for this year. I’m sure I’ll have more as time passes, but I feel like that’s a manageable amount to accomplish, and three is a nice number.

What are your resolutions for the year? Trying anything new and exciting? Let me know!