One thing about having is baby is that labor… is definitely labor. Delivering my child was probably one of the most painful experiences of my life – and I was lucky, with no complications. But after she was born I swore – immediately – that I was never doing it okay. No way, no thanks, not for me. I had my perfect, beautiful little baby and that was enough for me.
Or that’s what I thought.
Because now, when she’s a year and a half, I’m having… second thoughts. Wasn’t she worth every second of it? (Yes, absolutely.) And was it really as bad as I remember? (Also yes. But I’ve managed to block that out.) Would it be the worst thing if I had to do it again? Maybe I even… want to do it again? These thoughts keep running through my head and though I may not be a medical professional I think I have enough to diagnose this condition. It’s official.
It’s baby fever.
Thankfully, this condition is treatable. But the symptoms didn’t come out of nowhere. A lovely young woman at my work is expecting, as well as a close friend, and I know others who are trying. In addition to that, it just seems like babies are everywhere. Anywhere I turn they’re right there, with their cute, tiny clothes and their big, gummy smiles and their sweet baby smell. I would be perfectly happy with only one child – and honestly, for a number of reasons, that’s been my plan – but more and more lately I keep thinking how nice it would be if she had a sibling, and if I had another little bundle to snuggle and care for. I know, I know – this is temporary, it’ll pass, and it’s really only because I know several people who are pregnant now. But the feeling is pretty strong, and I will admit I’ve been browsing blogs and looking at lists of baby necessities and maybe wistfully going through the tiny newborn clothes my own daughter wore.
Does anyone else have “baby fever” right now? Any way to combat it? Let me know in the comments! In the meantime, I’ll go back to my browsing. If I can’t have a new baby (and we definitely can’t right now!) I can at least coo over other parents’!