Though January is already halfway over, I can still hardly believe a new year has started. Normally I love celebrating the new year – I use it as a new start, as a way to take stock and look back on what I like about my life and what areas need improvement. But this year, the transition from 2018 to 2019, just completely passed me by. I kept meaning to make resolutions or new yearly goals, or at least look back on the past year – and I meant to do this, and I meant to do this, and somehow it always slipped my mind and I never actually got around to it at all. In fact, on the 31st, I didn’t even notice when midnight came. So I feel a little… lost. Or maybe lost is too strong, but I don’t feel like I got off on a great foot.
So I want to change that.
For 2019, my word of the year is:
I want to be there and aware, enjoying my life. I have a bad habit sometimes of thinking how I wish things could be, or how things might be one day if I work hard enough. And I still want to have those goals, but I don’t want to take the time I have right now for granted. I’m a big believer in making the best of what you have, and even if things are a little messy for me right now, I’m still very, very lucky. My daughter’s going to be turning one this year, and I don’t want to miss a moment of this precious time when she’s still so small. My husband and I are happy and things in our relationship are going very well. I’m doing well in my career (I’m a librarian), and I have a lot of big plans for the next step in that journey, too. So I’m going to be “present.” I’m going to treat the time I have like a “present.” (See what I did there? Choosing a word with versatility.)
What’s your word for the year, if you have one? How are you going to apply it to your life?